I did paint yesterday – after all that moaning.
I also made a decision.
(I’m having commitment issues as I type. Decision is a pretty decisive word).
The other day I saw an article on Etsy about a quilt maker who decided to make a quilt a day. You can find her shop here. In the announcement on the front page of her shop you can read about her project. I thought it was interesting. Like a journal.
Anyhoo, I’ve been feeling pretty down about my wanting to paint and yet having all these confidence issues having a little war in my head, so, I thought I might snatch her idea and just get on with it.
I bought some small 8 x 10 boards a few weeks ago which seem perfect for the job, so yesterday I just painted. The idea wasn’t to go anywhere but to just let it be.
This is the first acrylic run,
and here I have begun to work the oil pastels in.
(Now I’ve posted them, I don’t like them. Man I was doing so well …)
Again, the problem I always have is, I like the spontaneity of the first one, but, I just don’t like the way the acrylics look. Conversely I love the richness of the oil pastels, but, now it’s boring and too trite.
See, thinking too much. The project was just to let it be.
O.K. so ignoring all that, (as N is apt to say, I am going to choose not to let it bother me), I went out yesterday and bought a couple more boards before I could get to second guessing myself and although I am not going to paint one a day as the quilt lady is, I am going to see what happens as I go along. I am going to start one, and finish one before I go on to the next. That should start to sort out my finishing issues, and then, I am going to list them on Etsy and sell them, that should help with my confidence issues. I thought $50 each, that should help me not be so precious with them, but they take me a long while so I don’t know. (See, getting precious already).
The money will go to charity so there’s another little commitment to help me take it seriously.
Now, here’s the rub. When tomorrow comes, will I have changed my mind – again?
Stay tuned …
Here’s a pic of Spencer and Wally snuggling.
I often catch them like this. Wally’s the instigator. Do you think he has issues also?